Jealousy

My life has been lead by jealousy.
trying to own everything what is not mine.
claiming all i should not claim.
and i am trying, god i am trying so hard, but still, i still got this jealousy. and sorry girl, i'm treating you this way, but know that, that it is because i love you so much.
i've been mistreated, trashed, by all i thought i could trust. I was made this way, and i am changing, maybe not fast enough, but i am doing all i ccan.
i love you girl, and i will get rid of anything that stands in our way.