Bed

Here i lay,
finally placed me
in my bed,
remenising the past,
and can't help but notice,
i did more wrongs than right.

i wish i could just sleep right away, without a care what tomorrow will bring, or better said, knowing i will still be asleep tomorrow.
A few months of sleep, that would do me good. Ceasing to excist for a few years, and see how people move on without me, of which i am sure they will. Wonder if 1 would stop and think, what happened to the boy we once knew?
The boy is dead i would answer, and i would smile at them, the smile a lot of people hate, which i love. I would like to see their faces after i've answered them, that look... it'll be a look to remember.

While i am asleep, i am happy, of that i am sure. Dreaming my lovely, probably weird and maybe even scary for others, dreams. Dreams i control, dreams in which i know i am dreaming, and use it to my advantage. Doing whatever the fuck i want, without worrying about the look people will give, without getting advice of other, without caring about others.
I love life while asleep, i am free while i am, one of the few times i am truly free of the limitations of having a body. I could fly while asleep, or move a mountain, or just have a mass-massacre, without having to stop and think, is this right? cause well... it is my dream, and i am always right in my dreams. since well.. the maker is always right, right?

So, here i lay, in my bed, waiting for the sleep to come and get me, and let my mind take me wherever i want to go, without consequences, without limitations.

staring at my ceiling i remembered a thought of mine from some time ago.
When you dream, you feel, see and hear everything like it's real. Now what if it is real? What if dreaming is the answer to letting your spirit leave your body? maybe i should go see god in my dreams and ask him? sad thing is, there is no god to be found... so who to ask, but myself?

Think outside the box right?

well, the more i think about it, the more proof i find that it cannot be true, sad though, it would be kinda enjoyable atleast.

Well, guess it's time to sleep, and hopefully, dream about that 1 special person that gave me life, a life full of love.

ZzZz...

Moogle