faith

I gave up believing,
so i guess ill be saying my goodbyes soon enough.

blind

Why are you so fucking blind to everything? why dont you just open your eyes for once, and see what's around you. And dont just see how youve seen all the time, see through it all, see what is behind it all, and maybe then, just maybe, you will learn.

Only fear death

They wanna bury me, I'm worried -- I'm losin my mind
Look down the barrel of my nine and my vision's blurry
Fallin to pieces, am I guilty? I pray to the Lord
but he ignores me unfortunately cause I'm guilty
Show me a miracle, I'm hopeless -- I'm chokin off
marijuana smoke, with every toke it's like I'm losin focus
Fallin to sleep while I'm at service, when will I die?
Forever paranoid and nervous because I'm high
Everybody's dyin am I next, who can I trust?
Will they be G's, and they look at me before they bust?
Or will they kill me while I'm sleepin, two to the head
while I'm in bed, leakin blood on my satin sheets
I'm under pressure gettin drunk, somebody help me
I drink a fifth of Hennesey I don't think it's healthy
I see my enemies they creepin, don't make me blast
I pray to God I don't scream when it's time to fry
Nowhere to rest I'm losin homies, ain't that a bitch
I put the pistol to my head, and say a prayer
I see visions of me dead, Lord are you there?
Then tell me am I lost cause I'm lonely
I thought I had friends but in the end i'll die lonely
Nowhere to run I'm in terror, and no one cares
A closed casket at my funeral and no one's there
Is there a future for a killer? I change my ways
But still that don't promise me the next day
They wonder if I'm hellbound... well Hell
can't be worse than this, cause I'm in Hell now
Don't make me hurt you I don't want to, but I will

nobody

*Knock-knock*
"Who's there?"
"Me.. Do you remember me? The boy that had never loved or been loved before. The boy that only knew hate in his life. The boy that had this load on his prawny shoulders, which won't last. The boy that only trusted hisself, and always had his third eye fixated on the ones that mentioned they were worthy of trust. The boy that has been betrayed more times then not. The boy that never wanted to live. The boy that only had wishes to have as his own. The boy that never truly lived, but only in his fantasies. The boy that cherishes his dreams, for they are his escape. The boy that never took advice. The boy that never read a word, but only read the hand that wrote it. The boy that never looked, but only saw. The boy that saw through everything, and had hard times believing what he saw. The boy that could only see lies and betreyal, but never saw the good. The boy that knew deep in his heart that he never was truly fully human. The boy that was always fighting demons atleast three times the size of him. The boy that had bend so many times, and almost broke to many times, but never fully broke. The boy that had always been underappreciated for his deeds, and underappreciated for his words. The boy that always thought he could have the world, failing to see the world was taking him. The boy that could never take his loss, and only lost and always failed to win. The boy that knew too much for his own good, and saw that it will be his undoing. The boy that hardly had thoughts of his own. The boy which mind was controlled by many, but he wasn't part of the many. The boy that never wanted to grow up, for he knew way too well what that meant. The boy that will always be a kid, but never was one. The boy that saw past, present and future as one, but got lost in it. The boy that always hoped there was an easy way out..."

"O boy, how much i long to hold you one more time, and to tell you it will all be allright, that it was never your fault, and that you should stop blaming yourself."
"For these tears i am crying, are only for you."
"Kid, i still love you..."

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